Clouds.

Something has happened.

Today is Saturday, 07/21/2012.

I am sitting in my hospital room and looking out the window as the storm clouds roll in.

Lighting.
Rain.
Clouds.

TV is off.
Pandora radio set to a Relaxation/Calming station.

I lay back and prepare to journal about my experience with ECT.

I had my second ECT treatment yesterday, on Friday.

I cannot put a finger on it or understand it just yet, however something is different.

New medication?

ECT treatment?

Change of environment?

A combination of all the above?

I don't know what it is however I will take it!

I am thinking a bit clearier and things are beginning to have substance to them.

I can feel myself thinking differently, reading a bit and  writing a bit more proficiently.

There is still a haze and still confusion.

However, relatively speaking, I am actually doing better.

I came up and took a breathe of air from under the heavy darkness of my depression.

Does ECT work?

Is it the medication?

Is it both?

I would say, "Yes."

The clouds roll outside as the thunder and lighting crash.

The clouds have split a bit for me as well and I am able to possibly see how this may, may work.

Glory be to God on High for His provision!

I am still optomisitcally hopeful that this continues to improve.

#whenitRAINSdance