LIFE SAVER.

Today was my 6th ECT treatment.

Today was a rough day.

Sore body.

Nauseous.

Headaches.

Getting stuck with needles is no fun.

However, either is living with depression.

I will take the trade off though.

ECT has brought about some relief from the debilitating depression that plagued me.

I have slept in the past few days unlike I have in the previous four years.

Am I cured? No.

Am I better? Yes.

When you are having to fight your own mind and retrain yourself on how to see life differently, it's very challenging and a daily fight.

It is an inner struggle that no one sees you fighting, alone.

I ask myself now, what is there to live for?

Or as a friend questioned me, I ask myself, "How did I end up here?"

No time to wonder how.

Time to start living.

Each day is a gift from God to be shared with others.

Who have you loved today?

If I am given a new lease on life, how will I spend the rest of my days?

Do I still have to battle this foe for the rest of my life?

I know this one thing: I want my life to make a difference in the lives of others, for good.

I don't want my life to be just a vapor in time, never to be remembered and never to have made an impact in the lives of others.

I prayerfully seek Gods best and His direction in my life.

#seekingHisface